i am on the verge of tears. the power is out again, there are ominous creaks, the wind is relentless, we're flooding in the house, i am worried about my condo disappearing into the ocean, the fucking meteorologists say it's going north, no it's going south, it won't hit guam, it will, it is, i'm so bloody tired, anxious and scared and i wonder why i fucking live on this island.